To the newcomer who wonders what the first thing he or she must do to achieve sobriety, we say that you have already done the first thing; you have admitted to yourself, and now to others, that you need help by the very act of coming to a meeting or seeking information about the C.A. program.
You are also, at this very moment, doing the next thing to stay straight; you are not taking the next hit. Ours is a one-day-at-a-time program. We suggest that you should not dwell on wanting to stay sober for the rest of your life, or the year, or even the week. Once you have decided you want to quit, let tomorrow take care of itself.
Just for today, you don’t have to use. But sometimes it is too much for us to project even one whole day drug-free. That’s okay. Just for the next ten minutes, you don’t have to use. It’s okay to want it, but you don’t have to use it, just for ten minutes. After ten minutes, see where you are. You can repeat this simple process as often as necessary, using whatever span of time feels comfortable.
Just for today… I don’t have to use!
In the C.A. fellowship, you are among recovering cocaine abusers who are living without drugs. Make use of us! Take phone numbers. Between meetings you may not be able to avoid contact with drugs and druggies. Some of us had no sober friends at all when we first came in. You have sober friends now! When you begin to feel squirrelly, don’t wait, give one of us a call. And don’t be surprised if one of us calls you when we need help.
It may surprise you that we discourage any use of mind-altering substances, including alcohol and marijuana. It is the common experience of addicts in this and other programs that any drug use leads to relapse or substitute addiction. If you’re addicted to another substance, you’d better take care of it. If you’re not, then you don’t need it, so why mess with it. We urge you to heed this sound advice drawn from the bitter experience of other addicts. Is it likely you’re different?
We thought we were happiest with our cocaine! But we were not. In C.A. we learn to live a new way of life. We say that it is a spiritual but not a religious program our spiritual values are accessible to the atheist as well as to the devout atheist.
We who are grateful recovering cocaine addicts ask you to listen closely to our stories. That is the main thing: Listen! We know where you’re coming from, because we’ve been there ourselves. Yet we are now living drug-free, and not only that but living happily; many of us happier than we have been before. Few of us would trade all our years of addiction for the last six months or year of living the C.A. program of sobriety.
No one says that it is easy to arrest addiction. We had to give up old ways of thinking and behaving. We had to be willing to change. But we are doing it, gratefully, one day at a time.
If you have answered Yes to any of these questions, you may have a cocaine problem. There is an answer – come to meetings of Cocaine Anonymous, read the literature and join us… we want to help.
Some of us hit a physical bottom. It may have been anything from a nosebleed which frightened us, to sexual impotence, to loss of sensation or temporary paralysis of a limb, to a loss of consciousness and a trip to an emergency room, to a cocaine induced stroke leaving us disabled. Maybe it was finally our gaunt reflection in the mirror.
Others of us hit an emotional or spiritual bottom. The good times were gone, the coke life was over. No matter how much we used, we nevermore achieved elation, only a temporary release from the depression of coming down, and often not even that. We suffered violent mood swings. Perhaps we awoke to our predicament after threatening or actually harming a loved one, desperately demanding imagined hidden money. We were overcome by feelings of alienation from friends, loved ones, parents, children, from society, from the sky, from everything wholesome. Even the dealer we thought was our friend turned into a stranger when we came to him without money. Perhaps we awoke in dread of the isolation we had created for ourselves, using alone, suffocated by our self-centered fear and our paranoia. We were spiritually and emotionally deadened. Perhaps we thought of suicide, or tried.
Still others of us reached a different sort of bottom, where our spending and lying lost us our jobs, credit and possessions. Some of us reached the point where we couldn’t even deal we consumed everything we touched before we could sell it. We simply could no longer afford to use. Sometimes the law intervened.
Most of us were brought down by a medley of financial, physical, social and spiritual problems.
When we found Cocaine Anonymous, we learned that cocaine addiction is a progressive disease, chronic and potentially fatal. It fit our own experience when we heard that contrary to popular myths about cocaine, it is possibly the most addictive substance known to man. And we were relieved to be told that addiction is not simply a moral problem, that it is a true disease over which the will alone is usually powerless. All the same, each of us must take responsibility for our own recovery. There is no secret, no magic. We each have to quit and stay sober; but we don’t have to do it alone!
